”I have to be ever so gentle with the Hope I woke up today…
Maybe today? maybe now?
I lit candles
And made tea.
Alysson said to me the other night,
”you have had success at expressing yourself…that is the greatest success.”
-Sabrina Ward Harrison
I wish that someday I could wake up like this. Feel the litghness within my heart.
The trees look like a crystal chandeliers, with thick snow on their branches. The earth is silent as the fluttering butterfly. The birds have started to sing few weeks ago, because the weather had been so warm and they somehow thought it would be a spring. The temperature is lower now, and I cannot hear any voices when I open the window. The nature looks very soft for the touch.
i have not been writing in here, what feels like an longest time... i have been bit gloomy; the disappointment can truly suck the juice of ”life” from me. Usually i try not to expect anything from nothing, but there is always still the little flicker of hope in my heart, which hopes for the best outcome; change of luck. Some kind of change, which would change.
I have pondered: do i truly belong to the art world? or is there something else i should give my attention to. I know that I have a need to finish my story quickly…
I am just like a fearing child, who wants to crawl under the table. I would like to build a fairy tale tent, where I could drink pots of tea, and just be and feel I am taken care of and nurtured. I want to feel the enthusiasm for something inspiring, build things with my hands with a pure joy.
I think I am just too tired of loosing and hoping…
However, I guess life will change from this to something else.
”We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,
so as to have the life that is waiting for us”
The green collage is from the deco booklet i created, maybe four years ago? Somethings change in art, but other things change like the typewriting text and the passion for the nature mother.
The other photo is taken on a same time, i so very much adore the trees! They truly are my soul siblings.